Hi. so it’s weird for me to connect with you
like this. I don’t have any of your contact info anymore.
but i knew where I could find you
in the world wide web.
I don’t really use this social media (my page is way out of date),
but I’m glad, i guess that this is a way to connect.
you’ve been showing up in my dreams
for the past month or two.
It’s weird because i haven’t thought about you
or any of that silly stuff in a longtime.
As dreams go, I usually dismiss them as old memories
or symbols or something.
but i thought this time,
i would just take the most obvious interpretation.
I don’t know why you’re coming up,
but you are. one of the dreams had you and her in it.
She was in a long lacy wedding dress
- a parade surrounded her –
i only supposed that it was your wedding.
it was a weird dream to have
- that one happened about one month back.
Then a day ago or so,
I saw our friend
posted a pic of the girl in white
at what looked like
a shower of sorts.
I can imagine it was her wedding shower.
that you’ll be married soon.
well, i don’t know what else to say.
I really want you to be happy.
and i want me to be happy.
i think i’m happy.
but there’s a weird feeling
i get in my dreams
when i see you.
i feel stupid for reaching out.
I guess i’ll just say one more thing
and then please don’t respond.
just be happy.
because I loved you. I really did.
and a part of me still does.
it’s a weird thing,
and i don’t know why i fell so hard.
maybe it was a rebound from a failed marriage,
maybe it was insecurities and wanting to cling to something.
or maybe it was just plain old love.
whatever it was, it was real.
i care for you,
although i really hope i never see you again
(the universe has done a good job of making that so).
But, with that said,
i do wish you so much
happiness and love.
be well and happy,
me” – Megan Marie Seaman